Marquez erasure

Everything looked wretched
the godless drunken celebration
or ragged
innocence
the unnumbered
dressed in black
like a helmet
the gloom of the chess games
a prescription

Future

Hidden 
In the buttonhole
Of my desire
A golden orchid
Seeds
Untrodden pathways

Cheap

Humiliation
Is the coward's weapon
Begging for me
To participate
In my own destruction

Nothing

No more
No more sweet guys
No more sweet guys for me

No more
No more hushed cries
No more hushed cries at night

No more
No more to break
No more to break in her 

Almost

Trust
Is almost palindromic
And we're back
Where we started
Apart

Exhale

If lies vibrated
I'd get off on you
If disappointments
Burned like skewers
I'd be toast
But they don't
And you left me dry
So now I'm
Bleeding
For somebody else

Giant

I'm reaching across oceans
But you meet me with silence
And all I can do is breathe 
This love is a giant
Tugging at my heart

Please don't shut me out
I'm just low on patience
And all I can do is wait
For the next cadence
Pulling at my heart

Leaking

Fresh out of saltwater
Done leaking for today
Drowning becomes me
A mess of chocolate curls
Around ancient wounds
Self inflicted

Easy

Easier for me
Because I've never been
Beautiful
Like the others
Easier for you
Because I've never been
Anywhere
Like this before

Sting

Loneliness stings the day
And I can't bear it
I can't listen to the same
Sad old songs
Because they slide
Knives beneath my memories
And I can't bear it 
I can't look at the same
Sensuous oiled nudes
Because they sink
Blades behind my eyes
And I can't bear it 
I can't
And loneliness stings