Limbo

Will I feel calmer
Once my mysterious malaise
Has earned itself a name?
Perhaps
But for now I feel utterly
Uninspired and of
No value to anyone
Capable only of
Caring for myself and
That hurts the most
I have run out of words
Attempting to explain
How I can't bear to live
Unless I am fit to serve
Others
I tire of my own company
I am grown weary of my bed
And the endless tests
The examinations
The accusations
Hope is fading
As I lay waiting